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It's never easy letting go…but come on!!

Mar 4, 2011   //   by Jen   //   OurBlogs  //  Comments Off

I am an emotional freak. I cried over plastic cutlery today. I have the hardest time letting go of things as my youngest child grows out of them. He is my last, and I am grasping at everything I can as though my life depends on it. I was washing dishes and realized that the while the kids still used the plastic animal shaped forks and spoons, Matthew prefers the metal, grown up, kind. Recap, he is the youngest. The logical side of me said “they don’t need these, it’s just more dishes to wash”. However the predominant side of me, the emotional, sentimental mess, immediately welled up with tears. Heaven forbid I find a onesie that somehow got shoved into a corner in the linen closet. You will find me on the floor, smelling it and hugging it and rocking back and forth. I don’t think I want to have a baby every two years for the rest of my life but I resent the hell out of the fact that I can’t. I still have my sling, I was just about ready to hand it off to my girlfriend whose first baby just turned one and still gets picked up a lot. Just the other night though, our next door neighbor invited us over to his yard after bedtime to enjoy a fire. The little guy woke up and wanted to come outside too. I knew he was soon to crash but not watching out the window. So I said he could come out but only if he stay in the “sling a ding”. I knew he would want to be picked up most of the time and it saves my back and arms. He said “yeah, mum, sling a ding!” and so it was and he fell asleep just like when he was tiny. I contemplated hanging onto it but visions of myself with a college student hanging off my hip (not in a good way at all) popped into my head and logic and sentiment began that familiar battle again. My need to share “the awesome” I’m sure will prevail and I will hand over my very, absolute favorite baby gear. My husband will be ready that day, I’m sure, with Margarita fixings and a very absorbent shirt…

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